Will I do Scribble September today? HmmmmmmmMmmmMmm. Probably not. idk. There are many unfinished priorities. 
Honestly I feel like the forum has entered the phase where most everyone is in high school or nearing it and is at the point where homework overwhelms at least sometimes, and especially overwhelms if you don't get it done on time. 
I want to try to consider that for future events. idk.

-Galaxian-

My OTP is Rai and Anima even though I've never written anything really romantic for them and I absolutely cannot imagine them like that
Rai's that dude who doesn't interact too much with others, not to mention nit-pick about them
Anima doesn't really have much capability to nit-pick
I can't do it for Hh either,,,

-Galaxian-

The memoir inspiration was deep too. And it wasn't one of the things I've written about for the hecking 5th time in my academic narrative career. 
Ugh. I--
idk. 
I'm annoyed and I also feel like I nosedived onto the ground along with all my inspiration.
I know I'm good at tying things to concepts they're not supposed to be tied to, but it's mundane to write about the same event(s) OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER again and each year just tie them to a "new moral" when you know there's only one. 
Are these assignments supposed to act as the devices to tell me that my life is boring? Because believe me, life, I know.

-Galaxian-

A day later I have yet to email my teacher because apparently they're (teachers are) spammed with emails. 
So I'll just go with the inspiration and try to make it look viable just to bomb it later because :shrug: (:
I don't have any excuses. I'm just excited for it so much I'm just going along with my stubborn individual impulses. It's probably hard to write too but whatever, I'll smack that challenge right in the front just to have it smack me later.
In other developments! I still don't have much time to write or draw, if at all, but I did sketch some more concepts for forum!Galaxian and I have a good idea in mind how his personality is like. It's basically mine with more angst. (:

-Galaxian-

This is basically me switching from one thread to another but
My English teacher basically said I have thoroughness, purpose, and passion in my voice. So, putting aside my jokes about having like no life purpose, only 1 brain cell, etc., aside, I kinda just want to seem narcissistic and think about this for a moment. "Aloud", on here. Sorry.
Thoroughness? I think in some parts I do have this. I pay a lot of attention to detail. Sometimes it doesn't show in me just desperately trying to balance detail and generality, but overall I usually start off writing most anything with way too many details in my head and on the draft. Sometimes I forget details, but usually they're there to be referred to. I think that I can say my writing is pretty thorough when I try to put more detail into it. 
In terms of purpose, I'm not too sure about that. I hold philosophy very important to myself--specifically, certain philosophies and beliefs--and just about everything I write has some sort of philosophy in play, whether it's in the background or represented or whatever. However, I wouldn't always say I'm writing for a purpose or multiple purposes. I feel like my voice isn't one that strikes out that much. I can play with literary devices all I want, but if literary devices were the individual carts of trains, they would not be connected together well. I do feel as if I try to ingrain purpose, but unless it's a subject specifically related to my purpose, it's hard for me to put in my thoughts and feelings or to convey the "purpose" of anyone. For this reason. I think the purposefulness of my writing is better when I'm writing nonfictional or nonfiction-related prose, but I do hope my all of my writing becomes more purposeful. 
Now it comes to passion. My interpretation of how much I feel emotions and express them has varied so much throughout my life. When I was younger, my voice was incredibly passionate--both physically and online. My expressions showed on my face clearly and my writing voice was about the same as my speaking one. In addition, I had an opinion about everything, and I wasn't afraid to speak it aloud if I needed to. However, after a few incidents spanning over a long period of time, I think that changed. Long story short, I was bullied, and so I focused my attention on schoolwork and became less willing to talk to others. Thankfully, that doesn't mean I didn't talk at all, since I had support at home--but my emotions became restrained from my real voice unless I wanted to set them free. After all, there wasn't meaning to letting others know what I felt if they never really cared. It remains like this even now, even if it has improved slightly, but habits from youth are not easily broken. Thus, there is a gap between the emotions I can express in writing (online) or in-person. I think that if I were to ask anyone except for my mom in real life whether or not I am someone who has passion in my voice or even just my demeanor/existence, the answer would inevitably be no. This is also why a lot of people who know me in real life and somehow have come across my writing usually have some sort of "this isn't your voice" type of criticism (by "criticism", I intend to say this as positively as I can. No one who tells me this is trying to degrade me or has ever tried to degrade me. They are telling the truth; my real voice is very separate from my writing voice). A notable example was when I wrote a personal reflection. My friend peer-reviewed it and remarked how it was not really expressed in my real voice, and that was true. It wasn't my "real" voice, but it was my real voice. My writing didn't try to make myself seem righteous or to imprint upon myself beliefs I didn't have. It was just that the so-called passion couldn't transmit into my real voice, and so it only came out while I typed, through the silence.
To try to tie it back together, I believe that I am someone who is very passionate about certain things despite my usual claims of neutrality. I am someone who is very emotional and still harbors many opinions, but I am less likely to express them in real life than I am in writing, causing a sort of disjointed connection between my heart and my voices. I may not be able to convey my emotions properly and to the extent I would like, but when someone is able to receive the fact that I feel strongly and put my feelings into my writing, I rejoice. It's a result I really hope to achieve.
And so, the comment made me so happy because it seems to imply that, even if the teacher is just being very nice, perhaps there are some things I am doing correctly. Perhaps I did, in fact, show capability to be thorough, show cohesion and purpose, and use my voice to convey what I feel. Even if it's just an academic setting and even if the standards are low, I'm at least getting there, and I hope to keep writing and be able to set up the bars higher as I go on.

-Galaxian-

Ok, ok, so the planning is done, which is great, but it never helps me when I write because I make like 5 changes to every point.
I'll have to start drafting today. Apparently we're supposed to have a "first draft" done by next Monday, which is, uh, stressful. 
I don't do first drafts. I make a flawed final draft 'cause that's how we do be doing it over here.
Peer reviewing opportunities went out the window due to no virtual classes (exempting homeroom) this week, which in part is good because I don't usually trust others to read over my writing and judge xD their judgment isn't always valid and they usually do it for the grade. I'm also guilty of that. Anyways, that's also why I like criticism from you guys--you all have no academic motive to help me, which is awesome of you :D. 
In any case, I hope we don't need to turn in first drafts because I don't finish a story/memoir until I am content with the middle at least. I don't revise for a week. I write, revise, write, and revise, and in terms of the final revision, it takes less than an hour usually. 

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion wrote:

Rune: I'm a bad writer because I haven't opened my writing doc in a few days
Me:
Me:
Me: (*tilting around in my chair with a (: face*)
Me: (*falls out of chair due to incompetence*)

I have opened it but have I written more than random sentences that don't make sense? No.

-Galaxian-

Oh my gosh XDD
I mean mood though

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I'll have to stalk your writing thread more often! You have some great stuff here!

My brain, trying to work: So, how will you write this memoir?
Me, tired: Yes.

-Galaxian-

My newfound habit of POVing in present tense is giving me huge issues when writing this memoir.
Also at this point younger me is less developed than my persona Galaxian, Hitan, and Rai, which is hilarious to me
Ugh, the struggle is real
(The struggle is real, the struggle is real. Like me, the struggle is real--I'll stop referencing a song now haha)

-Galaxian-

"Not less than 3 pages nor more than 5 pages."
Planning is 3 pages and it's single-spaced. This is fine

-Galaxian-
 

Ok, the issue of peer editing is coming up again. Or more like first drafts.
I'm supposed to send a first draft to anonymous peers by 23:59 today. Normally I'd want to do it earlier, but that's only if I can meet the limit.  
But the thing is, the level of revisions I'm already doing is on the level of a final draft. If I added more or revised more, frankly, it'd screw everything up. I'd have to rewrite the entire memoir based on that addition, which is also why I don't usually add stuff in revisions and why my "final drafts" are just basically the first drafts but reworded, restructured, and retyped. Their content is generally the same.
I'm thinking of sending a section to my peers, but the thing is, I can't continue to write if the section before what I'm writing (or a section, at least, that gives a good if not complete transition) is incomplete or unsatisfactory. My amount of revisions after typing out the entire thing is mostly comprised of rewording, restructuring sentences, and just generally clipping out things. I don't usually add. And especially for memoirs, where the memories are supposed to be accurate, there's no way I could add stuff to make it more interesting. 
Right now I'm not so much as stressing about the writing (3-5 pages in one day, especially considering how the planning is out and I already have one page, is very easy) as the peer review, which if you think about it is pretty funny. And the peer review is 30 pts vs. the 200 of the entire thing otherwise. 

-Galaxian-

Deciding to change up the entire memoir 1 hour before its due date be like